Every year when this week approaches it is an "out of body experience" for me. Each day that passes brings stress and worry and a whole other recipe of (pain in the ass) antics. I can hardly sleep through the night now anyways due to visiting the potty 3 times and now I can't sleep due to excitement/worry of what the coming day might hold.
Like I have mentioned before, baseball isn't just baseball to us anymore. Baby T puts a whole new spin on things. So with the closure of Spring Training upon us I am going to not only give y'all a 30 week update, I am also going to share an open letter to my husband.
So here it goes....
Jess,
As your 8th season approaches us fast and the birth of our first child is on the horizon I need you to know that this season will be different from any of the others before. Gone are the days of us eating dinner in a random restaurant at midnight, gone are the days that we (both) sleep until noon on travel days and gone are the carefree fun things we might choose to do just because we can and do not have anybody else to keep up with besides ourselves. I am sure you are thinking "well that stinks!' but this season will be the most special to me for what it will lack and what will be added. We have prayed hard and long for this sweet baby and God has given him to us. I need you to remember His faithfulness when the days are long and grim and you feel like you can't go on. You not only hold the title of pitcher and husband, you are now a daddy. I cannot wait until the baby is here and he can see how devoted his daddy is to his job and how hard you work at it. I swear some days when I drop you off at the field I want to burst into tears because I know how much you love your job and how trying it is on your mind. I cannot wait for him to see that, for him to witness passion, devotion, love and hate all in one. I do not worry for him because I know that he will see these qualities in you and will grow to be a strong man like you, persevering and fighting for his inning to be pitched in the big leagues. I need you to press on when you feel like you can't anymore because I know God will have you back in the big leagues. He has given us everything else we have asked for, so you just have to believe.
When I began this journey with you at 19 years old never would I have thought we would have experienced the things we have or been to the places we have been. The only word I can use to describe my life with you is Blessed. And the use of that word is an understatement because I honestly feel that we have been taken care of and in the hands of God through this entire journey.
A lot of things will be subtracted from our lives but I will tell you SO MUCH will be added. Whatever this season entails you need to know that your son and your wife do not define you by what happens on your job. Your stats, velo and ERA mean nothing to us. The team you play on is just your employer not your set destiny. Keep on throwin' hard, striking them out and doing what you love. You have two people in the stands who's lives you light up no matter what happens. So feel no pressure! Have fun, daddy.
Good luck to you as the season approaches. I have total faith that you will get where you want to be in and we will be there cheering you on no matter what.
Psalm 27:14, Genesis 28:15, Philippians 3:14, 1 Samuel 1:27
I will love you forever and I am so thankful to be your wife.
-E
How far along: 30 weeks
Gender: Boy!
Weight gain: Around 13 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Yes!
Stretch marks: None so far.
Belly button in or out: Pretty much an outie.
Sleep: Back to being so-so....
Best moment this week: Baby T was in his first wedding!
Worst moment this week: His movement was off during the weekend due to me being on the go and I did NOT like that.
Miss anything: Redbull when I needed a pick me up for the wedding.
Movement: Yes!
Cravings: French fries!
Queasy or Sick: Feeling good!
Looking forward to: Packing this place up and heading to Reno!
It has been a busy past week but now I can relax until I go home to have the baby. Congratulations to my BFF on her wedding! She was a stunning Bride!
Sorry for the overload of a post. I just figured I would pile everything into one since I probably won't post again until Monday due to traveling.
Have a lovely week!
Love,
E
